If you’re anything like me, you were determined to keep things running smoothly as the global economy waxed and waned. That meant forgetting happiness and going into hustle mode. I went into that mode and STAYED THERE, sometimes working up to 100 hours weekly as a peds nurse. THEN I would stay up all night making MC ZULU songs. I was all about chasing a dollar.
The end result: A permanent mindset of Hustle Mode & Promo & Hard Work & Grinding & Pushing Limits & Never Sleeping….
I had forgotten how to be happy. It hit me one time when we took our kids to the arcade. I realized that I was actually BORED! I WANTED TO BE AT WORK!!!! instead of enjoying the day with my kids??
Things were going well but I feel like that happened at the expense of my humanity.
Honestly, right now………………………………… FUCK THAT
Actually FUCK THAT since about 2012. I made a commitment to fitness and family. I stopped touring as much and let all my kids grow up WITH a DAD, instead of some wannabe Rock Star.
That might be more than you want to know about me, but it’s my truth. What’s your truth? If the whole “Sleep when you’re dead” mentality has made it so you’ve forgotten how to LIVE, then you need to make a similar declaration. Nothing you want is worth exchanging your health or quality of life.
HOW DO YOU GET IT BACK?
Get out of your comfort zone! Find things that you SUCK AT and struggle through them. Your journey will be beautiful. One of the things that I learned a while ago is that expertise can be boring. If people know the outcome they will fall asleep. Unpredictability incites curiosity and ultimately positive change. Reinvent yourself. Try as many constructive things as you can, until you find the ones you love. Your body and mind also crave variety. Fitness levels plateau if you do the same workout forever. Life is dynamic not static. You need to mix it up!
Capoeira (like Reggae) is something I love way more than I thought I would. I don’t care who’s better or worse. I’m just happy to be a part of it. Awesome, now find your “Capoeira”, whatever it may be. Chances are though, it lies outside of your comfort zone. Break your routine. Don’t be afraid to start at the beginning!